being sober is cool. day 1
alcohol is glamorized in media a lot, and when i go out, i see lots of people drinking in the sun - just a beer or two, nothing major. i like drinking, i like the taste of champagne, but more and more i have started to associate drinking with flabby people in the 50s with reddish faces, stumbling to a liquor store. i just don't think it's cool.
the pressure that i feel is that (almost) everyone around me drinks, but i do not like most people, i do not particularly care to be like "most people" (whatever that means), so why would i let one habit people have affect me so much? we were on the rooftop of the cool bar yesterday that looked over the city. i sneakily glanced at people around me - wearing relaxed fits, girls looking like Barbie dolls from the 90's, boys smiling smugly with the sun reflected in their old-school shades... the vibes were chill and fun, i was having a beer. i was not drunk but i felt a certain tiredness and instability that comes with drinking. i wish i felt strong instead of tired, that my glances and words were more deliberate. i guess i wish i did not feel tipsy?
i want to be fast, muscular, svelte, i want to look and feel strong. i feel like drinking is losing its cool factor for me. i'm gonna try not drinking at all starting now and see what that's like.