language learning doesn't have to be a big deal
yesterday i had to face the realisation that my language learning (specifically, swedish language learning) is very loaded with meaning. it is about acceptance, about me carving my own place in the world, and the world being receptive/not receptive of it.
it hurts more than it should when i make any mistakes, feels like it is a personal failing, not just a grammar (or a pronunciation) mistake. that all boils down to an insecurity and uncertainty in my identity, i feel. when i make any mistakes in english, it doesn't hurt me at all, i do not understand this.
not sure how to work on that other than to write about it here in my blog and in my paper diary. i would really like the language learning to be about learning the actual language, not some insidious, i dunno, traumas?
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thinking of project ideas to develop on cardputer, i am not very familiar with c++ but doesn't it mean that it will be that much more fun to develop?
resisting the urge to ask chatGPT for ideas, which creates some tension, which i think you must do to let your creativity flow.