people have been emailing me and i had no idea
apparently, fastmail hides posts from you if you use an alias email, or, alternatively, i am very clueless when it comes to their interface. either way, i got to read a some of message that people had been sending me. i am sorry i did not reply in time, that is my bad!
i was on the way to an event and filtered by unread, and what did i end up seeing?? emails from people who related to the things i say! it made me tear up. in general, i cry when i feel things and this was also really touching.
like you thought you were on your own in a room, but apparently there are other people there, quietly doing their thing, gently nudging you but never really intruding. it's sweet. and i'm really excited to reply now!!!! man!!! like getting a christmas present i swear to god!!!